Day One

May 7, 2010  -  For the past three months, the Lord has had me in a time of "hiddenness" with Him.  I have not become a hermit.  I still do things and go out to eat and visit with others, but the overall focus of my life has been to spend some extreme quality time just with my Father God.  The result has really surprised me in a fantastic way.  It is far more than I could even imagine.  And it has been awesome. What I have come to realize is that He has been doing extensive spiritual surgery on me this whole time and I didn't even feel pain.  He had me under His anesthesia.  I really did not know what was transpiring in me until I would realize that I had responded to something in my life in a very different manner than I usually did.  Perhaps instead of getting frustrated about running late, that was a real source of irritation to me, all of the sudden I would be running late and I didn't even care.  Now that is peace. ha.  For me anyway.  Things like that.  Also I have noticed a boldness and confidence of Who I Am and Who He Is.  I did not have a good self image of myself and that was not good because God says some very good things about us as a whole.  Somehow in those quiet, intimate times with Him, I was able to receive His love into my Spirit and also began to like myself.  A big shot, no way.  I just like myself - God likes me so I must be pretty good.  There is a sense of peace that is becoming my GPS, of sorts, as I drive through this life.  When I get off the path, the Spirit very quickly taps me and a discomfort enters me, an unrest.   I have learned that that uncomfortable feeling is Him guiding me.  It is amazing.  I am learning to trust Him in me, more so than every before in my life.  I believe He is doing that with many, many others in the World. The times of doubt or unbelief are diminishing in me also.  My faith in Him and what He has said in the Bible as being the truth is now beyond measurement - out of limits as I know them.  There seems to be a knowing in me that He does not want us to stay fixed within a parameter but allow Him to stretch us until He stops, not us.  I have always thought of myself as being a "out of the box" type person, but He is showing me, Whoo, there are not even any boxes at all where is wanting to take us.  It is the trip of a life time.  But, He needs to train us and get us prepared to be able to handle His full Glory on us and anointing so He can inhabit us fully.  What He is wanting also I believe, is to get us prepared for something coming in the Spirit.

My ability to trust Him has increased to a degree that I sometimes feel guilty because I am loosing all things into His hands so quickly that they don't drag me down as they used to.  Let's just say, I am progressing but surely have not fully incorporated it all into my life as yet.
In the past, I was a very self-sufficient person.  He is now showing me how much we NEED EACH OTHER.  It's like the body as a whole, not just one person being the whole enchilada.  No toe runs the show or even an elbow.  No way.  We must all find our place with Him.  If you allow Him to,  He will invisibly and undetected, move you into your position.  If you keep talking to Him, listening, reading His Word and just being quiet with Him, you will begin to recognize things are changing in you that you didn't even know He was dealing with.  He is so precious, kind, loving, intelligent, creative, funny, so Sovereign, the ruler of the universe, His Majesty, My Lord and Saviour, the True God of the Universe, etc.

Give Him your heart and let Him heal it for you.  Be yourself with him.  Open up every door in you and invite Him in, let Him do an extreme spiritual makeover for you.  Talk to Him about things from your deepest place.  You will be renewed, invigorated, pumped up, something in you will stand up and be accountable to Him and for Him.  Your Spirit man.  Go for it.  You will feel loved beyond measure.